The Gift of Confidence

A nice positive poem shared by my dearest Sis in July 2003. Thank you sis.

It's positive living, believing in the best,
expecting your plans to work out,
It's trusting you'll find all the answers you need,
It's patience in moments of doubt.

It's thinking about an "imposibble" goal,
and telling yourself you can do it,
It's taking the most precious dream in your heart,
and finding a way to pursue it.

It's knowing you have something special to offer -
your own unique talents to share,
It's taking a bright, optimistic approach,
that can open new doors anywhere.

-Emily Matthews-

Silent Prayer

Normally, i would seek for strength and courage from you. But if you give the strength and courage to pull through this one, seriously i'm not sure if those alone would be enough to see thru this one. The pieces will be too shattered to ever put back together. Nevertheless, i really thank you for bringing this to me, for allowing me to fully understand the meaning that i'm seeking for, and above all, for showing that the very thing that i seek for and believe in, really does exist in this world.

SECRET LOVERS By: Atlantic Starr

SECRET LOVERS By: Atlantic Starr

Here we are, the two of us together
Takin’ this crazy chance to be all alone
We both know that we should not be together
‘Cause if we’re found out, it could mess up
Both our happy homes

I hate to think about us all meeting up together
‘Cause as soon as I look at you it will show on my face, yeah
Then they’ll know that we’ve been loving each other
We can’t let ‘em know, no, no, no
We can’t leave a trace

Secret lovers, yeah, that’s what we are
We should not be together
But we can’t let go, no, no
‘Cause we love each other so
Ooh…ooh…

Sittin’ at home, I do nothin’ all day
But I think about you and hope that you’re okay
Hopin’ you’ll call before anyone gets home
I wait anxiously alone by the phone

How could something so wrong be so right
I wish we didn’t have to keep our love out of sight, yeah
Living two lives just ain’t easy at all
But we gotta hang on in there or fall

Secret lovers, yeah, that’s what we are
Tryin’ so hard to hide the way we feel
‘Cause we both belong to someone else
But we can’t let go
‘Cause what we feel is, oh, so real
So real, so real

You and me, are we friends
Is this cool or do we care
Can they tell what’s in our minds
Maybe they’ve had secret loves all of the time

In the middle of making love we notice the time
We both get nervous ‘cause it’s way after nine
Even though we hate it, we know it’s time that we go
We gotta be careful so that no one will know

Secret lovers, yeah, that’s what we are
Trying so hard to hide the way we feel
‘Cause we both belong to someone else
But we can’t let go
‘Cause what we feel is, oh, so realS
o real, so real, so real, so real

Lost and Found

Recently, i lost something. That was the 2nd time i lost it. And finally i found it.


Well, not everything that was lost can be found and recovered. Therefore, one should be too concerned over what was lost after a lapse of time and should instead focus on what was right infront before you lost it too.


Cheers to those who always found what was lost, because the searching period is awful and it's sucks if the thing is of value to you. For money can buy the same thing, but off this value.

Life is not a business plan, but a journey through nature

Recently, someone who was used to be closed to me told me that she thought she know me. But in the end, she doesn't know me at all. Purely for the reason that i've been to upclose to myself that i keep everything within me.


Suddenly i recalled that over a year, when i left my previous company, my director back then told me the same thing too. He flew down all the way from KL but to no avail despite trying his best to ask me to rescind the resignation. In the end, he just gave up as he says he failed to connect to me, to understand me and to kow what i was thinking.


Come to think of it, i'm seriously glad that there are people who are upfront enough to let you know your weakness despite that you've chosen to omit them out. I came to evaluate my journey of life on since when did i start become who i am today.


Through experience, when you enjoy your life, revealing every single thing about yourself, trust in everyone you called friend, and live the moment, there's when you're most happy. However, i guess it takes just one, yes only one betrayal to change everything.


No doubt that everyone you meet are different, and deserve an equal chance to gain the trust. However, seems that trust doesn't come that easily anymore. It has to be gained. The things is, does this new person deserved to be treat in such a way merely because of the past events? Honestly, i doesn't know. Hope someone can let me know.


Rather than living my live, i've been strategizing like just like a business plan. With vision, goal, direction, competition and objective. Achievements and success i've gained, however, emptiness was deep and apparent. That is because after each achievement, you're without directions. Then again, you draft some new goals, objectives and etc...


Live life as it is. Enjoy the beauty of nature and gods' creation as you walk pass by. It you like the stream, stop by and take a dip. If you see a beautiful plant and you like it, shower it with tender loving care. Doing such things won't stop you from reaching you're destination. However, it does makes you're journey more wonderful and memorable.


Let things be natural and accept what may comes for what may comes is what was meant to be.

When things changed, it'll never be the same again.

Wow... 2mths since last blog. Been another hectic period of juggling studies, work and lots of self doubts. Sometimes just seriously wondering is that i'm wearing a size too big! hahaha.. but then again, guess it's just all a mindset. If you think you can't, then you definitely can't.

So far, past 2mths, have been getting a bit lazy. 4days to assignment submission, but then i'm still not done... n above all, not working on it. Well, we change to continously adapt. But surprisingly i ain't changing for the better.

Haha... woke up this morning, wondering what the date was... wow, June 14, the year is half way thru. Looking back past 6mths, plenty of things have changed. Good or bad, no one knows. Only time will tell. What we've done, is something we can't changed. But what we can do, is plan for a new change for the wrongs and make sure the next 6mths is better than the past 6mths.

Thanks... My friends

Yes, the semester is getting nearer to its end. After many distractions, delays and self doubts, 1 sem is finally going to be over. Just another 4 more to go.

It's been tough months, not mainly due to the nature of the program, but rather due to personal mental strength. However, as the semester progresses on, i believe the mental strength is getting stronger and having more believe in myself and ability.

This achievement, i have to say, thanks to the many wonderful friends that i have been blessed with. They have been a huge encouragement to me whenever i lost hope and near to giving up. Through them, i've learn to believe in myself, to never stop believing and that things will eventually find it's way through.

I hope i won't disappoint all of you.

Thank you very much for being there and for all the inputs and encouragements and spiritual supports.